Category Archives: Faith

Daily Quote- When Crickets Cry

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From Charles Martin’s “When Crickets Cry.”

“…but maybe life is like that – you never know when something that’s been hidden is going to rise up and bite you, or glow with a golden hue.” 

 

“People marvel at the genius of Mozart because he supposedly wrote “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star” at the age of three and composed his first symphony at the age of twelve. And yes, of course he was a genius, but another way to look at it is that he just discovered early what it was God made him to do. That’s all. For some reason, God gave him a little extra, or a little something different, and Mozart found out what that was and then got a head start on using it. Of course he was brilliant, but that’s not the point. The point is he knew, and then he got to work.” 

 

(title of book) “Why, their crying.” I leaned in and tried to hear. She whispered in my ear “only if you listen closely, and you WANT TO, you can hear when the crickets cry.” I leaned in again. “No, no, no. You don’t listen with your ears, you hear them with your heart.” “Why are they crying?” “Because they know it’s their life for mine.”

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Daily Quote-Their eyes were watching God

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I love Their Eyes were Watching God, by Zora Neale Hurston. I definately recommend it to everyone!

“Ships at a distance have every man’s wish on board. For some they come in with the tide. For others they sail forever on the horizon, never out of sight, never landing until the Watcher turns his eyes away in resignation, his dreams mocked to death by Time. That is the life of men. Now, women forget all those things they don’t want to remember and remember everything they don’t want to forget. The dream is the truth. Then they act and do things accordingly.”

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God Looks Like Happiness

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Today when i woke up i do my everyday routine..wake up, feed Myla, change Myla, then on to the laptop to check emails/facebook/new blog posts/pintrest..u get it. But today one of my best friends posted this as her status on facebook, ” I think God looks like what happiness feels like.” Wow what a powerful statement and so very true!

I started thinking..what  does god look like to me?

God looks like:

Nature. i think im closest to seeing God, in the solitude of Nature. There, i am his creation experiencing all of his creation.

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My favorite color, GREEN! (im honestly convinced that God and I share the same favorite color! and I think im not crazy because EVERYTHING is green..ok well most of the world is either green or blue..the sky and the grass/trees/leaves..u know! lol)

The smile on my daughters face!

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He looks like my best friends! Through them i have more happiness and good memories than i could have ever asked for!

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He looks like my family. God creates us and delivers us into our families arms. He chooses our family for us. Through them we learn to be who we are. God says, this is what i want for u from the moment we are born and when i look at my family i see how loving God is and how much of a parent he is himself. Through my family i have seen strength, anger, tears and happiness, love, humor, disappointment. All the good and bad God makes he instilled in the family and I’ve seen it all.

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God looks like my new family..My husband. In him i see Gods unconditional love. I see acceptance and sacrifice! i see a fathers love. Thatas what God is right? a father!

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i even see god in my kitty, Mr. Watson! He is playful, but protective and always loving..so is God.

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God is everywhere. I see him in everything. How do u see God?

Religious life is life

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excerpt from “Living Buddha, Living Christ” by Thich Nhat Hanh

 

Twenty years ago at a conference I attended of theologians and professors of religion, an Indian Christian friend told the assembly, “We are going to hear about the beauties of several traditions, but that does not mean that we are going to make fruit salad”. When it came my turn to speak, I said, “Fruit salad can be delicious! I have shared the Eucharist with Father Daniel Berrigan, and our worship became possible because of the sufferings we Vietnamese and Americans shared over many years”. Some of the Buddhists present were shocked to hear I had participated in the Eucharist, and many Christians seemed truly horrified. To me, religious life is life. I do not see any reason to spend one’s whole life tasting just one kind of fruit. We human beings can be nourished by the best values of many traditions.

 

Professor Hans Kung has said, “Until there is peace between religions, there can be no peace in the world”. People kill and are killed because they cling too tightly to their own beliefs and ideologies. When we believe that ours is the only faith that contains the truth, violence and suffering will surely be the result. The second precept of the Order of Interbeing, founded within the Zen Buddhist tradition during the war in Vietnam, is about letting go of views: “Do no think the knowledge you presently possess is changeless, absolute truth. Avoid being narrow-minded and bound to present views. Learn and practice non-attachment from views in order to be open to receive others’ viewpoints”.  To me, this is the most essential practice of peace.

H.W.B

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From Henry Ward Beecher:

 

“It pleased God to reveal to my wandering soul the idea that it was his nature to love a man in his sins for the sake of helping him out of them; that he did not do it out of compliment to Christ, or to a law, or to a plan of salvation, but from the fullness of his great heart; that he was a Being not made mad by sin, but sorry; that he was not furious with wrath toward the sinner, but pitied him–in short that he felt toward me as my mother felt toward me, to whose eyes my wrong-doing brought tears, who never pressed me so close to her was when I had done wrong, and who would fain with her yearning love lift me out of trouble. And when I found that Jesus Christ had such a disposition, and that when his disciples did wrong he drew them closer to him than he did before–and when pride, and jealousy, and rivalry, and all vulgar and worldly feelings rankled in their bosoms, he opened his heart to them as a medicine to heal these infirmaries; when I found out that it was Christ’s nature to lift men out of weakness to strength, out of impurity to goodness, out of everything low and debasing to superiority, I felt that I had found a God”.

Just Focus!

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Being pregnant comes with one side effect they never tell you about! CRAZY weird vivid dreams! Sometimes ill wake up in a panic or sweating as i try to keep myself awake so i don’t fall back into the same dream! Other times ill wake up crying because the dream seemed so real that what i just witnessed really happened to me! Last night was one of those nights! except i woke up feeling like i had accomplished alot and i felt my sense of self had been renewed! It got me thinking…but first let me tell you my dream!

My dream started off with me being at the office i worked in while i was at Capital University. I was sitting in a large circle being stared at by a bunch of High School students!..If you go to Capital you know how inconvenient it is to have high schoolers come visit because our campus is already small and they take up alot of room and crowd the cafeteria!..anyways, My supervisor Teresa asked me to tell them the best piece of advice i had learned in my 4 years there..I thought about it one minute and then i said, “just focus!.” I went on to explain my 4 years and how no matter how many times i wanted to give up and go home, no matter how hard class got or how stressed out i had gotten as long as i focused on the reason i was there in the first place i could keep going. They all stared and then asked questions like, what about relationships and friends? I recounted how i had been in a relationship that tore me down but once i ended that and focused i was able to find my husband and he was my greatest encourager and my friends were also a great deal of help..and as long as you make the right relationships, healthy relationships you can make it through much easier and with a better outlook on life!

I woke up as my husbands alarm rang. Time for work again! When he leaves I usually sleep in until 10am but it seems today will not be one of those days. I started thinking about what i had told all those kids, about my husband and my friends, and “just focus.” I had my birthday 2 days ago but i didnt check my facebook until yesterday and i noticed a video posted by one of my best friends and a few girls that were in my major…they sang me happy birthday and wished me luck with the baby. I didnt realize how meaningful this video was to me until it was over and i wanted to cry! i saw these girls almost everyday but i hadnt realized that they would ever do this for me! It made me feel somewhat important. like i did matter when i was there!

Then i thought about my husband and everything he does for me and how he pushed me through my last year of school. never letting me give up and trying to relieve my stress as much as possible…even though i knew deep down he wanted me to be with him! I don’t know anyone who encouraged me as much as he did…My love for him increased as i realized all the things he still does to love me…and i realized hes never intentionally made me cry, never intentionally hurt me or my feelings. He cares for me like i’m the most precious piece of glass and i don’t know that ill ever deserve the way he loves me. All i know is i hope in my lifetime i can make him feel that way too!

“Just Focus”…my main goal in life was to graduate college so i can have a brighter future. Now that its over i only focus on being a wife and soon to be mother. Then in may i start online classes for my Masters in Counseling…and i wonder what its going to be like..what is my main focus to get me through the next few months? it hasn’t changed! i want a brighter better future but now with more furry than before because i have a husband who supports us all and i want to help him. I have a daughter who will need a lot of things and i want her to be proud of me! I want her to have hope for a future too! I want her to see what her father and i have struggled through and be encouraged that she can accomplish anything she wants!

I want other people to know the same thing. Maybe its not school, or work, it can be anything in life! Just focus on whats ahead. Focus on your dreams, or why you started what you’re doing and just keep going! I don’t care if the world falls apart underneath your feet! Just keep going! I did it and i’m still doing it! You can too!

 

39 weeks!

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Today marks 39 weeks of my pregnancy! I feel like shes never gonna make her arrival into this world! i have this sense of nervousness about the whole process but i’m more antsy and ready to get this labor thing over with!! Especially since last week i was told that my daughter will have a big head! The doctor didn’t seem to concerned by i immediately twinged with pain as i realized labor may be much more difficult than i wanted it to be! But Good news is i’m already 50% thinned out and 2cm dilated and i’ve felt none of the contractions they say i’m having! Lets hope i can get another cm or 2 before i really feel the pain!

I get a checkup today too so im hoping for another cm! and i hope her head hasnt grown anymore! My mom arrives next Wednesday and im hoping the baby holds out until she gets here so my mom can watch her first grand baby be born! But if not i hope she comes quickly and doesnt give me too many problems!..or rather that my body does what its supposed to so i dont have to get a c-section! ill be devastated!

Make a way for me

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Since i’ve been thinking hard about my faith and what i should do about how far away from God i feel, i took it upon myself to join youversion.com and i started a monthly reading plan about prayer and service…although i feel like i haven’t gotten anything out of it yet…but i’ve been reading everyday and trying to find something to help my faith. Then today i decided maybe i should try another one so i just started a yearly devotional (this one with commentary) and i have already connected to it on the first day!

“Its easier to loose that special presence of God than it is to get it back once we’ve lost it” Joyce Meyer

This is soo true for me. I couldnt even tell you the exact moment i let God slip out of my life..but i could surely spend an hour telling you about how ive searched to find him and i have yet to capture him completely as i once had..Man its tough and i know once i get him back again i wont be so quick to let him go!

Inspirational Bloggers encourage me!

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I got on FB today aand read this post by Matt Bohr, my youth pastor when i was a teenager.

“Remember, as a Christian, you have two choices. #1. You can sit back, not do anything with the power you’ve been given, wait for heaven, and try to ignore the empty feeling you have, OR, #2. You can step out, take the hits as they come (cause you know who’s dishin them out), and see lives changed through your life in Christ! No “grave tending” life for us!!”  ~ Matt Bohr

I thought to myself…”well its clear which one i am! and he would be so disappointed!” Truth is..i’m disappointed in myself. I surround my blogging with people who write about God’s Love and I admire the hearts they have for God. Their posts and daily challenges inspire me to start doing something! ANYTHING for that matter! I have fallen behind in my faith and at times i have no idea how im supposed to bring myself up out of the rut i’m in. How the heck do i get back to the God loving, God serving girl i used to be?

Here are a few bloggers who encourage me!

Shelby– we went to church together and now i loveee reading her posts! Im so amazed by person she has turned into and the God loving heart she has. Shes reading the Bible in a year.. I thought about taking the same challenge or any bible reading challenge for that matter!…I also follow people she posts about because idk how she does it but she finds some amazing people!

Because of shelby i found Mandy at MessyCanvas. Shes amazing and im always inspired by her posts and ive even downloaded her ebook on becoming an artist even if you think you arent one! it was amazing!

I’m following Caitlin at Collective Disclosure her heart for God is also amazing her posts and the verses she posts always give me the new perspective that i need! and she encourages me by showing what its like to live out God no matter where you are in life.

Also, Christs Revolution always encourages me when he posts. He gives scripture and explains it to the best of his ability. He does a great job too! i always feel like im getting a sermon but those sermons always hit home and theres no better kind!

Thank you all for encouraging me!

I recently got an advertisement in the mail for a church near our apartment! Its very enticing so i looked it up online. The people look so nice and their services seem to be just what i need! They even say you can wear what you want..which is nice! and they have loud christian music. The best part is they focus heavily on service. I’m a service kinda girl! My youth pastor^^^ once told me i had a servants heart. i could never pin down my spiritual gift and that’s what he told me…and its true! ill do anything to help and i always want to find ways to help the less fortunate or even someone who just needs a listener. BUT….I’m scared. I don’t know how to go into an unknown church and say “Use me!!” And what if i don’t like it or i dont fit in?

Another recent thing ive picked up again is reading. My husband decided to explore various sides of religion while he was on his deployment and now he has about 6 or 7 books that i was so interested in reading. He has a few books on free will and destiny and one about budhism and another about peoples struggles and how God helped their lives. I picked up one called The Belief Instinct..i got to reading the introduction and i immediately was disapointed in it! I like how the mind works psychologically but not to this point. By the end of the Intro i finally figured out that he was trying to prove that God is a figment of our imagination and he intended to help the readers know this so they could no longer be fooled by God as an illusion!! I was so mad! My husband suggested i keep reading to get another persons view point so i might better defend why i belive and KNOW god is real! But im bot ready for that! I just wanna get my faith back again not have some psychologist point me in the wrong direction! Then i realized that the books about destiny and free will were collections of philosophers writings and i again was disapointed because i already struggled through Ethics reading Plato and other various philosophers because i had no clue what they were saying. Finally he had 3 books i could read! So im reading Prisoner of Tehran. Im inspired by her struggle so far and her heart always faces God, Im only on the fourth chapter but id already reccomend it to everyone!!

I guess what i need is some encouragement from people who know what its like to be at this stage and maybe some words of advice! Any help would be amazing!

Create!

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Its taken me a few days to think about what word would lead me into this new year. Last year my word was patience…and boy was my patience tested and i surely tested others patience! That word changed my life…especially in the moments when i didn’t allow myself to be patient with others and i went against what they were asking of me. I’ve taken more time to slow down and to be more understanding because of this word. I need something just as life changing. But what word would do that for me?

I came to the word CREATE everyday this week.

Create means:

 adjective/verb (used with object)

1. to cause to come into being, as something unique that would not naturally evolve or that is not made by ordinary processes.
2.to evolve from one’s own thought or imagination, as a work of art or an invention.
3.to be the cause or occasion of; give rise to: The announcement created confusion.
I’ ve been searching for ways to decorate my apartment and i spent hours looking for DIY projects that would look amazing and i found a lot! i also had a few really cool ideas that would keep me busy for a while. For instance, Michael and I went to the beach and there are rarely any full sea shells. I thought i could take them and break them up into tiny pieces and use them to make a mosaic! Ive always wanted to create one but i had never had the money to buy all the cool glass and mosaic tiles! So why not use part of God’s creation to stimulate my own creations?!! I’m also now saving our toilet paper rolls and Popsicle sticks so that i can make a few pieces of wall art for our apartment!

Ill use the popsicle sticks and scryllic paint to create a driftwood look for the background of a Quote i want in our apartment

I found this from Make & Do Girl.

I want this to be the quote on the above art work

This image from etsy

cool toilet paper roll design!

I found this from natty nook. i also wanna use the same idea in my baby’s nursery and create a tree with tiny mirrors and picture frames. ill have a sketch to come soon! along with this i found a similar mirror and toilet paper roll idea from thriftyandchic.

they used pvc pipe but ill use toilet paper rolls

I also want to create a home for my husband and I and our soon to be here daughter. We live so far away from our families and rarely get to see them. Its hard to feel at home in San Diego, with its fast pace lifestyle, crazy drivers and rude people. Its not the east coast southern lifestyle we were raised in. I wanna create that homey feeling for us…i haven’t had that spark of ideas on how to do this yet but i have all year!